staying in bed depressed is something to do
same with feeling as if you want to quit

my friend messaged me about sex and how we will think of "did i live life to the fullest" in the future
i feel like i was mean in a way in my response

i think about quitting writing now a lot
because its hard and i don't feel like i have anything to write

ugh
i just want to lay here

i should work on classwork
or study

i ate pizza today, haha pizza
i ate like eight slices and feel like shit about it

i wish i was skinny
i wish i had the dedication to exercise or eat right

a big part of my problems is that i'm not organized
or dedicated

I broke down crying in my car today

i got a record player from a friend
and then got some records from the radio station i work at
and now i'm listening to old blues real nice

thinking a lot about biographies
it would be cool to have one
what about like
a blog biography
blography

theres that thing after waking up from a nap
like
ah im still tired but literally nothing is gonna fix that
man

my throat is killin me
same with my ear
i dont think this is "just drainage" as the doctor said
can't get "second opinion" becasue i only can go to student health services
maybe i'll make another appointment for monday

i ate wendy's again and drank a soda
spicy chicken sandwich isn't so mcuh spicy as is
"eat this then 5 mins later your throat will hurt a lil bit"

also the coke tastes really sweet
brb gonna check the mail

first two posts have contained references to poop

so has this one

three poop posts

#pooppost

sore throat past few days
doc says its from drainage from allergies
coughed up gross brown snot in shower today
it was gross
while taking a poo i thought about
when i swallow mucus from my nose in my sleep
then it goes through my digestive system
and then i poop it out
pooping snot
and then i realized in indiscrete body things are
like i can label "poop" "pee" "sneeze" "snot" "eye junk" "ear wax"
but its really just all these body secretions that can kind of over lap
idk i'm not a doctor
someone tell me i'm wrong

starting this as... weird i guess daily cathartic brain poop thing
something i would do when i had twitter
still have twitter but i deleted my main account
now i have 25ish followers and it makes me uncomfortable
would rather have none
which is why i started this
because no one will read it probably